"A different side of me"

Have you ever wondered?

2006-10-30T18:46:00.000+10:00

Why the world spins the way it is now not the other?

Why people have a certain type of person they like and want to be with, when we are all made equal?

Why people use orange color to represent a stimulant?

Why people have to have a sterotyped picked out by other people, when that is never who they really are?

Why old people think teenagers are threats to society when society will soon be ours?

Why parents tell us that seating to close to the TV will ruin our eyes, when really we are seating that close to try and listen?

Why some people do or watch porn just to feel some kind of intimacy? (hmm...)

Why on children's TV there are hardly ever any children, when it is call kids TV?

Why daydreaming seems weird but dreaming while sleeping isn't?

Why foreign films are made more beautifully than hollywood films?

Why people ask for a reason why you love them, talk to them, hug them, care, and enjoy them?

Why you think you have some kind of intimacy with someone who shares common interests?

But, most of all

Have you ever wondered why there is always that one person that you fall in love with and know it is a forever love?

hmm...

2006-05-25T20:17:00.000+10:00

Suffering from malnutrition has brought my weight down to 64 kg. It was a very hard work for one semester to gain weight to 67 kg and It took me only 2/3 weeks to bring it down again. Digesting only Up & Go for every breakfast, which is liquid breakfast (fibre of 2 Weet-Bix & Milk), apparently doesn't ease the roaring sound of hungry stomach. Plus, I'm hypothermic (not really).. I mean the weather is getting colder, 12 degrees ladies and gentlemen. Clogged nose makes my voice sound like stabbed-in-the-throat Donald Duck. Falling off the door frame gave me broken thumb and it has restricted me to climbing.

Sounds very depressing and dramatic hey? but that's not all..here it comes again, my mourning!

Time passed in cocophonous fury, and none is nearly done. I'm screwed. There's nothing else to i can do except face the reality, do the actual work, reduce my hours of repose, and get the fuck off the internet. This weather makes me not want to get up. damn winter!

But i'm still in the good shape. Lucky, coffee is keeping me alive. I can't imagine how life would be sans coffee. I've doing a lot of DVD watching. I finished the first season of Grey's Anatomy, and I don't know how long I have to wait for the second season to be released. I watched Melinda Melinda, the only Woody Allen movie I've ever seen. I might go for his other movies to actually see how good he is. I also watched Anchorman, very funny and also stupid. But, I always like Will Ferrell, he's entertaining. I might start on the first session Nip/Tuck which is supposed to be good. I kind of started on the first episode, I didn't really like it. I may give it another shot.

If I had to live the day with only 5 songs, I'd choose these :
1) Unravel - Bjork
2) Gong - Sigur Ros
3) What's In Store? - Architecture In Helsinki (Barely happens to me to be loving the last song of a CD)
4) Looks Just Like The Sun - Broken Social Scene
4.1) Green Grass Tunnel - Mum
4.2) Angeles - yes, the man named Elliott Smith
4.3) Photobooth - Death Cab For Cutie
4.4) So Begins Our Alabee - Of Montreal
4.5) Cosy In The Rocket - Psapp
4.6) Marching Bands of Manhattan - Death Cab For Cutie
4.7) Rose Parade - Elliott Smith, yess that man again
4.8) The Way We Get By - Spoon
4.9) Raw Sugar - Metric
4.10) Hide and Seek - Imogen Heap
....
I don't want this list to end at 5 because it'd never end. They have all been in my playlist for weeks...I have to kill them and replace with new ones, suggestion?

Love to all!

Scissors, Paper, Rock

2006-05-11T18:15:00.000+10:00

Namaste!

Last night my friend, Sashia, and I were trying to figure out how to play scissors paper rock on msn. c'est difficile. It started off when we came up with an exact statement at the same time. It's just a matter of who copied whom, and we couldn't tell. Actually i could, because on my window , my typing appeared first, but she said the same thing, hmm...msn is weird. Anyway, each one was trying to defend themselves. What significant is that this was like the third time happened to our conversation for the past few days, and we always argued about who said first. So She came up with a briliant idea and we decided to play scissors-paper-rock game to determine the winner. It took a hell long time to set the rules (wtf?! who needs rules anyway!). We tried all ways to work it out, such as voice clip. Each one was trying to play it fair and cheat simultaneously, and we dwelt on the game and forgot the purpose of the game. Ultimately, I won the game and she admitted she lost and that she has copied my sentence. Actually, I wouldn't care if I lost, it wasn't a big deal. But I was happier that i won, because she was being mean for laughing at my decent hobby, Rock-climbing :P !! It was fun though! What a way to procrastinate!!!

This post is not so important, I'm just fleeing the work I should be doing. Oh..and I have just removed one movie off my list and am adding another movie to the list , The Piano. I watched The Big Lebowski just before writting this. It's about a time wasting slacker who just wants his rug back but eventually involves in the abduction business. It's really funny, and stupid. I liked it!

I stumbled across these and couldn't resist sharing. So to occupy your boredom, here is the list of internet randomness:
We Like The MOON
Life In Italy

Music :
> Architecture In Helsinki
> Stars
> Metric
> Okkervile River
> Broken Social Scene
> Death Cab For Cutie

Major Events:
May 31st: Poster
June 2nd : Thesis and Technical Paper
June 10th: My first and only final exam for this semester.
July 15th: Mates of State Concert.

Dinner and Coffee time!

Hugs to all!

2006-05-08T14:57:00.000+10:00

I indulged myself to idle daydreams today. Procrastination has been a new trend and somehow I'm always keen to do things other than work. Within 3 hours, I've only been writting 4 pages which is not very efficient. It's almost 6 p.m. and it's when a decision must be made, whether I should go climbing or stay and do work. Either way I'll regret for the thing I won't do. ah hell!!

I'm starting to see phychedelic image composed of dots of pixel when i close my eyes as a result of staring at the computer screen for a really long time. This must not be good! Feck! I think I need to take a break. I'm going to watch "Drive Well, Sleep Carefully" by Death Cab For Cutie.

Music:
-Sigur Ros
-Mum
-Boards of Canada
-Amina
-Bjork
These all are for tooth fairy lovers who'd love to have coffee in bed. Perfect for resting and daydreaming.(all of them are Icelandic except Boards of Canada)

This site shows the performance of Amina on Icelandic TV (not recommended to those who're going to Sigur Ros concert, it'll ruin the enchantment of the show, because the show is magical!!). Amina is a 4-piece experimental band from Iceland, and known as Sigur Ros long time collabolators. Click here -> Amina

This post is just a product of procrastination that's ridiculously annoying to which I must put an epilogue.

Takk..

'The funny thing about commonsense is it's not too common' - Alex Makin Smith

2006-04-27T14:14:00.000+10:00

Be worried !
Global warming is not some vague future problem. It's damaging our planet at an alarming pace.
Be very worried!!

(oh oh..ignore the gecko. it's just to fulfil my obssession with rock climbing. My close friends think i personify a gecko because i'm always excited to go climbing)

Copying Sara’s idea, but instead of book, I am writing a list of DVDs I want to see to occupy my boredom and excite my grey matter. They are (in no particular order):
1) Three Colors: Blue (French)
2) Three Colors: Red (French)
3) Three Colors: White (French)
4) Russian Ark* (Russian)
5) 2046* (Taiwanese)
6) Read My Lips (French)
7) Brazil
8) 2001 : A Space Odyssey*
9) Dr. Strangelove
10) Dancer In The Dark
11) Léon
12) The Elephant Man*
13) The Big Lebowski
14) L.A. Confidential
15) Blade Runner
16) The Sea Inside* (Spanish)
17) 8 ½(Italian)
18) Red Violin(French)
19) Indochine(French)
20) No Man’s Land* (Bosnian/Slovenian?)
21) The Barbarian Invasion (Canadian)*
22) The Lawrence of Arabia*
23) House M.D season 1
24) The taste of others (French)
25) Thumbsucker*
26) All The President's Men
27) Howl's Moving Castle
28) The Fly

…..more to come…

* in my DVD collection.

wooo...13 foreign language films , and Three Colors Trilogy has the highest priority in the list!
Long weekend this week, I think I will cut out some of the list and update it with new movies. Exciting!!!

Ode to Pink Tri-cam

2006-04-27T14:01:00.000+10:00

Oh Pink's the one I love to place
when I'm alone way up in space
on some exposed and airy face.

They sink where other gear won't go.
When all you've got is manky pro,
This tricam saves your butt from woe.

But it's often hard to get them out;
They make your second moan and shout
And wave his nut tool 'round about

But that's why you're the one on lead
Your problems are a different breed
As long as someone does the deed...

"Oh quit your whimpering," you rumble,
"And get it out or there'll be trouble"
"Get to work now, on the double!"

Although it sometimes takes a while,
They do come out with vim and guile,
(or chiselling and curses vile.)

Pink will do what all the rest.
Won't do when they're put to the test.
Oh pink tricams are just the best!

-- Charles "Pinky" Danforth

Climb hard!! weeee.....

Hometown fantasy (come running home!)

2005-10-17T23:16:00.000+10:00

click to enlarge image.

WHoaa...I'm tired and bored!
When is this shit gonna end?!! yeah what i mean by shit is the assignments and their colonies.
Apart from that i'm all good. I can't wait until this all over. My last final is on the 4th of November. Freedom awaits!

Christmas is coming soon ..well it's in 2 months, but still...woohoo!! I'm so excited because I'm going to go home and celebrate it with my family for the first time after 2 years.
Yes..HOME!!! i miss the smell of the potpourri, the warmness, the silhouette of my mother, an all the idea of home.. I'm longing for it!

Upcoming Gigs:
October 28th: Taste of Chaos Concert (The Used,Story of The Year, Funeral For A Friend, Rise Against, Killswitch Engage) -> I bought the ticket 3 months ago but now I dont feel like going.
November 4th: The Amity Affliction -> My mate's band. He works at a CD store and sometimes gives me discounts.
November 29th: Every Time I Die concert -> I really want to go but I think i'll be home by then. sad :(

well.. keep fucking working!!!!

Lemonade

2005-10-09T23:13:00.000+10:00

Why lemonade?

because the weather has been disgusting. It's getting hotter as the time goes by. It's also dry and stormy, and I hate it so much. So lemonade would be the best thirst reliever in this weather.

Or because lemonade is correlated to the yellow color and I always think yellow represents mellowness . I don't know why. Maybe because it rhymes with mellow or maybe that's the natural characteristic that the color inherited.

My heart has been numb thesedays. I can't feel a thing inside. And sometimes my anger is flared by unimportant issues. Everything seems to stress me out in any way. To what extend can I handlle this situation? God knows, I don't!
At the momentI enjoy hanging out with my current friends, but I don't think it's what I'm wanting. I need more beyond the fun.

I feel like I'm in need of someone who can bring the mellowness, chill the anger and satisfy my thirst of "touch" (not literally!!!).
Yes.. I need a Lemonade..

The world needs convincing.

2005-10-06T23:16:00.000+10:00

holla... I'm back to rock hard the cyber world. I've been good in health but not mentally!

I've been very stressful and kept busy by uni work. exams are coming soon and I'm not ready for them. I've been slacking the whole semester as I usually do so I've been enjoying this semester by far. I didn't realise it's my last year in uni and and it's going to finish within less than a year. On one hand i'm excited but on the other hand i'm shit scared.

"what am I gonna do next after graduation?" is a typical question that wanders in every student's mind. Frankly, I'd answer "don't know!" if someone asked me that. I have a few rough plans though and now making the decision what's left to me. well...ideally I'd want to see myself in ten years as a successful researcher whose work is applied to the related field of study. I guess I'll decide what to do whatever it takes to reach my dream. But the question doesn't stop there. is it what I want to achieve? What if it's not what I'm destined to be? what if the world ceased to be the scene of my personal hopes and wishes? Will I be ready to be something that I didn't really want? More questions are coming up as I think deeper. Ohh...this thought gives me headache. It doesn't only bother me. It also bothers my parents as they want to know what i do after it. Should I just leave my future to the world and follow where the current flows? hmm..I can't answer that, otherwise I wouldnt be worrying about it by now.
But i guess i should be worrying more about my current situation as a student than my future life which is still vague.

Oh..I watched Garden State for the seventh time overall or sixth time on DVD. And I've bought the DVD twice. I lent the first one to my friend but she just never got it returned.But I just love the movie,so I don't mind buying it again. The movie is so genuine, plus Natalie Portman is a hottie. I like the pool scene the best...awesome .I've got so many ideas to explore my emotion from the lines and the story. One of my favourite lines is " Maybe that's all a family really is (pause) a group of people who miss the same imaginary place.". This film withdrew my emotion, since my heart's been numb lately..so it's good. Moreover, the soundtracks really fit into the scenes of the movie. so if you havent seen it, go get it now!! it's rad!

I've been listening to many cds of different genres lately, mostly hardcore though. my favourit cds at the moment are

That within blood ill tempered - Shai Hulud (fucken sick!!)
Ignite and Rebuild - Life In Your Way (kicks ass!!)
Doppelganger - The Fall of Troy (awesome..hands down!!)
Juturna - Circa Survive (rad!! high-pitch voice)
Illinois - Sufjan Steven (pretty chilling)
Skeleton Jar - Youth Group

There's more than that but i just can't be bothered to mention.

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Horoscope for October 6th,2005
CANCER (JUN 22 - JUL 22)

Today's forecast:
Being spontaneous is fine, but keep it light. Don't get involved if you're unsure.

In detail:
If anyone can sense something brewing, even before it's officially begun to brew, it's you. No doubt about it. At the moment, your intuition is definitely running on high, too -- as is your temper. Of course, that really can be a divine combination, especially if a certain someone who's been glancing at you across the room has been gradually (and deliberately) letting those glances last just a little too long.

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And that's it. I'll end it here. Mosh hard!

FIN

Requiem For A Dream

2005-02-25T15:23:00.000+10:00

The weather is warm and sunny. Today may as well be a wonderful day to some people since it's friday, but it may not either.And here I am waiting for that immaculate sense of timing that somehow steers the right words the right way. I don't even know in which phase i am right now.
I purchased a ticket to Melbourne yesterday. I'm so excited that I'm finally able to get out of this fucken shithole!! I can't even find a black nail polish in this city...jeez!!
It has only been 7 months since i first arrived but I already feel bored of the city. I think this is the feeling that you get when you get settled down in one place.
I am going to be there for 6 days/5 nights. I hope this definite period of time will get me out of boredom and refreshed before getting back to the routine.

Tomorrow is the arrival day for my roomies. Things will change sooner. I'll start to love them and look for them even more in more natural way . I realize how important friendship in my life.
Before that i'm going to kill those fookin' scmucks for leaving me alone. =D

I've been trying to finish watching Kubrick's 2001: A Space Odyssey. The movie is just artistic, yet soporific. Last night was my fourth night falling asleep whilst watching it. However, It's an artwork that should be respected that i think watching it is the way to respect it. The movie requires our imagination to reveal the hidden depth of the artwork based on vapour and atmospheric interference.

I've been infatuated by indescribable static illusion that occurs while putting my headset on with the music playing. The screaming can relieve all the stress that you've carried on all day and the emotional feeling that you pass onto the environment whilst singing . Crazy !!

Recommended CD to be played : The Used ( self-titled album)
Book being read: The Autobiography of Richard Branson - Losing My Virginity
Action to do : getting my lip pierced ( still chickened out. Fuckhead!)

"If something is hard to do, it's not worth doing it" - Homer Simpson

Let's get skankin' !!

2005-02-21T18:25:00.000+10:00

Dear blog,

Aren't you glad that i'm updating you? well you better be !!! it took me 22 days to think of and prepare things to say...although a lot of things happened in that period of time.
But i was just looking for a perfect time to write, so that'd become sacred.
That's just hypothetical....and me being gay

well...anyway summer class has just finished, exam is over and with confidence i'm saying that!!
Life is boring and pathetic. what i do now is work and spend the rest at home...so roomies get yer frigen arse back here!!!
But i'm getting a weird feeling that i'll be getting along with people in the house again...no naked ska dance, no topless cooking,and no shower with door open again!!! basically stuff that you can't do with people around. (i never did those things. it's a metaphor)

I bought Streetlight Manifesto cd. I found it accidentally in the cd store and i paid for it!! well, it will bring back all the memory of my good time skankin'. The unique sound that makes you want to hop, dance, and shake your head..and when you put your headset, you will imagine yourself in the mosh pit!! crazy!!!
Fastbeat as the heart palpitates.
Sara: am I really the first person who you ever saw do the skank?

Uni starts next week..how sad is that? firstly i found it exciting since i missed the environment. But, somehow the timetable was updated and i found out that i'll be having morning classes at 8 on mondays, wednesdays, and fridays...that's truly sad.
I only had one morning class last semester and i never attended to any at all!!! is the same thing going to happen again next semester?

anyway things aren't going right in my head...i feel like a jackass!! the feeling that you think you're fine but you're actually not. From deep inside my mind keeps telling me you're stupid, although smiles always decorate my face!! But this is the consequence i have to face for not being consistent on my track!
i'm a wreck and will stay wrecked.........*hit my head against the wall*
I don't know why i'm being so testosteron-y which is not cool... :-(
this is a relieving track recommended by tala : Let Go - Frou Frou (Garden State OST)

Last movies seen on:
Cinema: Million Dollar Baby (4/ 5 stars)
DVD: Donnie Brasco (4.5/5 stars)

Sincerely yours.

Boredom Strikes Back

2005-01-30T10:54:00.000+10:00

Mood : Cranky/Bored
Time : 2:42 a.m.

After being gone for days, i think it's time to blog and kick the world's ass!
I suppose that blogging helps my anger ease considerably.

Some friends were being such a dickhead. It's explicit and offensive but they're not going to read this anyway, so what the hell !! But I reckon they know to whom i am refering.
The story is just too long....fuck it!
Lately i've been feeling discomfort in the society (more than 4/5 ppl). I think it has been affected by the fact that i'm alone at home. People gossip and chatter too much. They're so hypocritical.

Today I was supposed to play tennis but the court was closed. I'd already warmed up by catching a bus which i missed eventually. Stupid driver didn't see me running and yelling. so I had to take a cab to the tennis court. By the time i arrived the tennis court was dark and empty. I found out that my friend forgot to check the schedule for today, he thought the court would be closed at 9 which apparently was closed at 7.
I've been obsessed with tennis since Australian Open started. I watched the women's final match. Serene William won. not too exciting isn't it?

I went to Mt. Coo-tha (i hope the spelling is right) with friends. It' s the place like a hill where you can see Brisbane from the peak. It's very beautiful. I think i should capture the view with my camera sometime. It's actually a good place if you're a couple, very romantic and a good place to make out.

I went back home and put Friends DVD on. This is my new habit where i have to watch friends before going to sleep. But sometimes I end up falling asleep on the couch and leaving the tv and dvd player on. YES, It's a waste of energy. I think that's better than having to hear my neighbour having sex in the room which is just above my room.

My dad's is coming to town on the Feb 8th and getting me a new computer. I'm so excited!!

Music obsession : Taking Back Sunday, Billy Talent
Last movie I watched: Sideways (rating 4.5/5)

Joke of the day

2005-01-19T09:14:00.000+10:00

I do not want to post this joke in the first place but Ahmed insists.
It's a knock knock joke...it's lame but i think Ahmed loves it

Knock Knock!
Who's there?
Olive
Olive Who?
Olive you so much!

I'm sorry if you feel like hitting me, seriously i feel so bad for having post the joke.
It's only because of you Ahmed...

Mrs. Fields and Mac

2005-01-16T01:39:00.000+10:00

A bite of Mrs.Fields' is something
Never ceasing to amuse.
I love its round irregular edge.
And the chunky way it chews
Every bite of it elevates me to the highest level of Nirvana
unique, and 100% indulgent cookies

I'm currently nibbling the third piece of White Chunk Macadamia.

I'm tired of working. i had 6 hours today and it was a busy night...people kept coming and the orders never stopped.

Mini Mac rocks...When will it be released in Australia? I want one!! ipod Shuffle too !! i want them so bad...i kept asking Tala the advantages of using Mac...I think it's great!! Although i doubt it whether it's accessible to engineering software.

*yawn* time to sleep...

The Resurrection

2005-01-14T01:28:00.000+10:00

Hey,
this blog has been dead for a while it's because i got a job at Nando's and have been kind of busy. But hey ,it resurrected.

Maybe some of you wondered if anything happened to my family in Indonesia because of the tsunami...thank God nothing happened...they're fine!

responding to the previous blog "my greatest fears":
1. Assignment is done finally but we got deducted 2 marks since we were overdue. i'm still happy it's done.
2. i still havent gotten the ticket yet. the tickets were sold out, but they started selling them again but the only spots left are on the sides of the the stage that make an angle of 180 degrees.
still thinking.

Currently on the players:
DVD: Incubus morning view sessions, and Friends session 3
CD : Senses Fail, and Brand New

I wish everyone as happy as i am or even happier than i am...

The Greatest Fears

2004-12-19T05:13:00.000+10:00

I guess i have difficulty in signing in my blog.
This afternoon i tried to sign in but i got logged in as lao_lao , some chinese guy, i assumed
Even the blog was in chinese letters. i wished it was in english so i could edit his blog and turn it into some funny(read: dirty) stuff....Hehehe (evil laugh!)
That's so weird cuz i'm sure i typed the user ID and password correctly.
However, i finally managed to sign in and be able to blog.

Anyway, My two greatest fears at the moment:
1) Not being able to finish the assignment which is worth 50%.
I thought I'd be doing it which until now I haven't. I need something to initiate my urge to work and to terminate my laziness.
2) Not getting a ticket for Green Day concert on March 7th.
It's because I am fucking broke !!! I don't wanna miss Billy Joe Armstrong rocking the town...
The tickets are already sold out in melbourne and Sydney...keep on praying!! front row baby!!

Boredom strikes early in the morning...Laziness follows one another...I missed the morning church already...is tonight gonna be a nightmare?

--> Off to uni....

Don't do this at home (especially during summer)

2004-12-16T21:26:00.000+10:00

hey!! hey!!

I'm sharing my experience of cooking.

This is the list of 2 things that you should not do:

1) Do not cook topless (especially for girls, coz there might be some pervert checking you out)

2) Do not wipe you ass...oopps...eyes after slicing chillies.

this is what happened to me this afternoon when i was cooking.

Today was hot...and hot so i took my shirt off. (yeah!! stop picturing it!!)

i got so hungry so i started cooking. due to the heat so i didnt manage to wear a shirt.

i was stir-frying chicken and beef, but the beef was a bit water-y. so when i dropped it the oil went all over my body..it was so hot and i got so oily (nice huh? oily? stop picturing it again!!)

lucky it didnt cause any severe injury...just minor burns.

anyway i was going to prepare the ingredients which were to be added to stir-fried chicken and beef...man,i didnt even know what i was cooking...i just added everthing i had in the fridge.

so i sliced some chillies...i thought that would add some taste to the food.And since the weather was hot i became all sweaty and the sweat dripped to my eyes. i instantly wipped my eyes and forgot that id just sliced some chillies. geezz...i felt my eyes burning,tears dropped, and i was like crying. i washed my face and it took sometime to heal.

damn i got jinxed twice but it's ok the food tasted good though!

anyway it taught me a lesson though...that i needed an AIR-CONDITIONER.

imagine if i had an AC, i wouldn't have to take off my shirt off and sweat my ass off.

this sucks since my apartment doesnt have an AC...all i have are a fan and windows.

i tried to put on the fan but what i felt was just hot air driven to your face and i got you even hotter.

i swear today was hot...it was like 36 degrees outside... when will this summer be over?

arrggh!!

hey, i'm wondering ,since i'm all alone,how it'd feel to be completely naked and then wandering around the house....it'd be cool (literally!!)

i guess it wouldn't bother anyone since no one would notice

anyway i'm off to cook dinner umm..supper actually...back to ass kicking business.

wish me luck :)

PS: Thanks to sara, tala, and ahmed for commenting on my first post...wish you guys good luck for the finals!!

My 1st post

2004-12-13T18:18:00.000+10:00

I don't know why i created this...i just thought it'd be fun and simple...but apparently it got so complicated...huh!! but finally YAY!! i have a blog!!